Oh my MR.3

MR.3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
where are you :(
I MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH

ish
i can't meet him in two weeks time

yeah
it's fucking two weeks
oh no :(

that means
i'll have only one week time to meet him
and then byebye
everyone of us will say byebye to each other D:

oh no
T^T
i don't want
i will miss you badly

oh dear oh dear
how can i survive in this two weeks time
and how can i survive in the time that after we say byebye?

oh gosh
please pray for me
:'(

The Fantastic Number 3.

number 3
it's a normal number

but
it means a lot to me

3

is always the gap between me and you

3

is the distance between me and you

3

means the place where am i when you're around

yes
i have to leave you 3 steps away

3 steps
it's enough to let me miss you

3 steps
it's enough to let me think about you

this 3 steps
means a lot to me
only this 3 steps
i can count how far you are
i can control myself for not falling down and down

3

is the lucky number for me

IMY.

我爱上的。

很久很久
没回来了

最近忙什么
最近忙音乐会

在我的生活里就只有音乐
音乐
是最重要的

在这场音乐会
我遇到了一位新朋友

他
我欣赏

很少人像他
那么有吸引力

不知为何
我就是觉得他很特别

他特别的让人想多望两眼
他特别的让人觉得很舒服
他特别的让我很自由

因为他的一句加油
我好像踏入了一个空洞

因为在我最需要安慰的时候
他给了一句加油

就一句加油
我很感动

我知道
我很幼稚

但是
因为那句加油
我陷入了

怎么办
我陷入了
我开始需要他的鼓励
我开始需要他的安慰
我开始想跟他倾诉心情

但是我知道我必须打消这个念头
我不能让我自己再陷入到无可自拔的状态

还有三个星期就音乐会了
就三个星期
三个星期
让自己去沉陷

三个星期后
我不可以再想他
我不可以再念他

我要告诉自己
他不适合我
他跟我不同世界
他不会喜欢我
他不可能喜欢我
他，:)

Crash Up EVERYTHING

everything was messy
everything was crushed
everything was ruined

i'm a loser
i'm a stupido
i'm a useless person

god damn

haiz
today's performance was so damn messy

i was so scared
i'm sorry steven
i don't meant to mess it up
it's my fault
i didn't make them practice
but i bluffed you that they practiced
and i said that everything was ok

but in the end
everything was not ok

i'm super desprate
i'm super down

i have no mood to face anyone
annoying
speechless

gshhhh

when i'm driving back from BB Park
i nearly ran into an accident

i kept thinking the messy performance
and i forgot there was a super turn infront
and i just keep speed and speed and speed

when i saw the turn
it was too late
i turned my steering wheel all over
and turned back

my car was like going in S shape
and two of them was screaming

AND MY EYES SUDDENLY BLACK-OUT

oh america

but luckily there was no car around
and we're safe
it was so damn freaking scary

i thought i'm going to die.

miyako.

feelings.

sometimes...
i'll feel that i'm dumped
:(

i hate this kinda feeling....
friends or family....
i always get this feeling from them...

the more i want to stay with them
i feel like the more they want to stay away from me...

i know i'm not a pleasant girl
i know i'm not a great girl
but please don't hurt me...
i have feelings too...

regards,

miyako.